Christian Life

He is ALWAYS.

Why do good people always have to suffer? And the bad guys are laying on the bed of prosperity? Didn’t the good ones deserve a good life? But why did they always have to be the one who’s crying?

When my sister was diagnosed of a stage four Rectal Cancer, my whole world crashed. I can’t concentrate on my review. I can’t think straight. There were mornings that I would just realized that I have fallen asleep last night crying. I bargained almost everything, telling Him that I would do everything for her to be okay. That it will be fine with me if I won’t get pass on board exam if it would cost my sister’s recovery.

I cannot understand why a 19- year old girl have to fight a battle like this. She’s a caring  sister, a responsible daughter, a faithful friend and a hardworking student. In fact, she’s on her fourth year in uni this coming school year.

As for her.. her dreams were set. We have great plans together. We want to help our family the moment we finished school and find a good job. And most of all, we both have a burning desire to serve Him. In church, as a head of Children Ministry, she have spent some of her time searching and thinking of a good activity that would draw the children closer to God.. And yet..

Sometimes I would just look at someone who’s the same age as her, and I would tell myself, why does my sister have to suffer like that? Why can’t she be a normal teenager like them?

I refrain myself from questioning Him. There are times that I just wanted to throw all the blame on Him and ask, “Why do these things happen to us? Why did He let my sister to be sick?”

But no. Who am I to ask? And no, He don’t deserve the blame, and I think He never did and He never will.

My best cousin once told me, “Ang ulan, bumubuhos sa lahat. Walang pinipili. Maganda man ang dulot ng ulan o trahedya. Lahat nababasa.”

That hit me.

God never sent me trials because I am bad and God never gave me blessings because I am good. It does not matter whether you did something good or not. Or whether you always go to church, not even when you help others or not. It is not the basis. And it never have been. Either way, He is letting those things happen because He loves me.

He loves me and He want me to be a living testimony of His greatness. He wants me to know and feel His presence. That He is the only One who would give me strenght.. that He is always beside me, and He will never leave nor forsake me.

He is working  miracles through me.. through my sister..

Through us..

Sometimes, we tend to doubt His promises, we doubt His will, His power. We doubt Him. But amidst all the doubts, He always make a way knock the doors of our hearts. He would always make a way for us to know that these are not battles to be conquered by ourselves alone. God is with us. Forever.

Christian Life

My Faith Did

And so I take the qualifying examination..

My previous blog post will tell you how devastated I am and torn at the same time between giving up and pursuing my dreams and become a CPA. I tell you how crucial it is to pass the said examination that the idea of not taking it bothers me. I am afraid that I would not be able to make it.

The examination went on last February 8 and 15..

Whenever the questionnaires fell on my hands, I’ll write my name, take a glance over the first page, close my eyes then I’ll pray.

I asked for His guidance and wisdom. I asked Him to remind me all the lessons that I have learned and blessed me. I told Him that I would not be able to answer those if I’ll just rely on my own efforts. I told Him that if it’s really for me, so be it. That if it is His will, so be it.

I even told my friends that it will only be miracle if I will be able pass it, because I wasn’t really prepared. The first week, I only read Business Law and Practical Accounting 1. And on the 2nd week, ¼ of MAS is what I have only reviewed. I swear to God, my chances of passing were just like a mustard seed.

And then February 17 happened..

I remember how my best friend Regine got nervous. How she sigh heavily every minute that day. How I told her to stay calm coz I am very sure that she made it. And how I was just so cool, laughing and throwing jokes with my friends that day. I wasn’t really expecting anything. But at least I am praying..

“Pumasa tayo, Gine?! Pumasa tayo!!!”, I told her when I confirmed that I was really in. I was literally jumping and rejoicing that I can’t help but cry. Tears of joy. Out of 84 examinees, I made it to be on the Top 30. I hug her and still hug her tight. I just can’t really believe that I made it. God made it for me!

Result of the Qualifying Examination for 5th year BS Accountancy, 2014. See my name on #20! :)
See my name on #20! 🙂

I am so much overwhelmed how God loves me this much. That even how sinful I am. Even though I neglected Him at times. I haven’t been to church for two consecutive Sabbaths. I haven’t been praying constantly for like forever. He loves me still that even though how I didn’t deserve His love, His blessings.. Still He gave me those unconditionally. No words could express how thankful I am to Him for giving me this! I just realized how powerful prayer is.

Sometimes, you just have to have faith. Err, no. You have to HAVE faith. Faith in God. Faith in His power. Faith in His blessings. Faith in His grace. Faith in His love..

 

I tell you my friends, I didn’t really passed the exam..

 

 

 

 

My faith did..

Christian Life

Fervent Prayer

“Prayer is the opening of the heart as to a friend. Not that it is necessary in order to make known to God what we are but in order to enable us to receive Him.” 

 

”Prayer does not bring God down to us but brings us up to Him.”

While Jesus was upon earth, He taught His disciples how to pray. He directed them to present their daily care upon Him. And the assurance He gave them that their petitions should be heard, is assurance also to us.

Jesus Himself while He dwelt among men was often in prayer. Our Savior identified Himself with our needs and weakness, in that He became a suppliant, a petitioner, seeking from His Father fresh supplies of strength, that He might come forth braced for duty and trial.

He is our example in all things.  

He is a brother in our infirmities. In all points tempted like as we are but as the sinless one His nature recoiled from evil. He endured struggles and tortures of soul in a world of sin. His humanity made prayer a necessity and a privilege.

He found comfort and joy in communion with His Father. And if the Savior of men, the Son of God, felt the need of the prayer, how much more should feeble, sinful mortals feel the necessity of fervent, constant prayer.

Unceasing prayer is the unbroken union of the soul with God, so that life from God flows into our life; and from our life, purity and holiness flow back to God.

Christian Life

Goodbye, Old Self

One day I met Jesus and He helps me understand
Life on earth without Him makes me lonely makes me scared
He changed my life completely
Changed my dark nights into days
He pour His grace upon me and He told me to follow Him
To follow Him and obey

Goodbye, goodbye
It’s hard to say goodbye
My old dreams and desire I left behind
Jesus gives another way to take
Another way to live
Goodbye old self

He told me to follow Him and to give up everything
Give up all my hopes and dreams
And put my trust on Him
It’s hard for me to nod my head
And say yes to my Savior’s call
But then I remember on the cross of Calvary
He was nailed to die for me

Goodbye, goodbye
It’s hard to say goodbye
My old dreams and desire I left behind
Jesus give another way to take
Another way to live
Goodbye old self

Christian Life

Wake Up Call

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less. We buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families. More conveniences, but less time, we have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge but less judgment, more experts yet more problems, more medicines but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions but reduced our values. We talked too much, love too seldom and hate too often.

We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added years to life not life to years. We’ve been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbour. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We’ve done larger things but not better things.

We’ve cleaned up the air but polluted the soul. We’ve conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of too incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are the days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the shower room window and noting in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete…

Remember: Spend more time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember: say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember: Give a warm hug to the next one to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn’t cost a cent.

Remember: To say “I love you” to your partner and your loved ones. But most of all, mean it. akiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember: To hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be ther again.

Give time to love, give time to speak. And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

And always remember, life is not measured by the number of breathe you take but by the moments that take our breathe away.

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The moment that I have read this letter, realizations hit me.

We were fed up for a kind of life that we are living. Living a life with no contentment. We want something. We do something. Yet we don’t really understand what are those really for.

We are living a life in a routine way then suddenly we have forgotten what brought us here. Why we are here. What are we living for.

I remember from a movie–Facing The Giants, Coach Taylor said..

“The more I read this book [Bible], the more I realized life is not about us. We’re not here just to get glory, make money and die. The Bible says that God put us here for Him, to honor Him. Jesus said the most important thing you could do with your life is to love God with everything you are and love others as yourself….. He sent His son Jesus to die for us so we could for Him. That’s why we’re here.”

See? We all know what’s the right thing to do, yet we don’t actually doing our best effort to make it.

We are busy making a life—our career, our profession, our riches yet the an endless riches that God offered to us have taken for granted by us.

If only we commit our lives to Him. If only we spend every single days of our lives honouring and glorifying His precious name. If only..

But words are just easier to say than to do. But nothing is impossible if we choose to draw ourselves to Him. Nothing is impossible if we constantly praying for a change of heart. A heart that only seeks Him. Worship Him. Serve Him… Love Him.

This whole ‘thing’ is a reminder for us that life is so much precious. Given to us by the most Loving God. I know we can make it!

We can, not only by ourselves but with the guidance and love of God.

All these things, I pray in Jesus name,

Amen.