Christian Life

Fervent Prayer

“Prayer is the opening of the heart as to a friend. Not that it is necessary in order to make known to God what we are but in order to enable us to receive Him.” 


”Prayer does not bring God down to us but brings us up to Him.”

While Jesus was upon earth, He taught His disciples how to pray. He directed them to present their daily care upon Him. And the assurance He gave them that their petitions should be heard, is assurance also to us.

Jesus Himself while He dwelt among men was often in prayer. Our Savior identified Himself with our needs and weakness, in that He became a suppliant, a petitioner, seeking from His Father fresh supplies of strength, that He might come forth braced for duty and trial.

He is our example in all things.  

He is a brother in our infirmities. In all points tempted like as we are but as the sinless one His nature recoiled from evil. He endured struggles and tortures of soul in a world of sin. His humanity made prayer a necessity and a privilege.

He found comfort and joy in communion with His Father. And if the Savior of men, the Son of God, felt the need of the prayer, how much more should feeble, sinful mortals feel the necessity of fervent, constant prayer.

Unceasing prayer is the unbroken union of the soul with God, so that life from God flows into our life; and from our life, purity and holiness flow back to God.

100% Fangirl

Tongue-Tied Over 873 Words

ASDFGHJKL!!!! ♥ *speechless* I could cry.

Love Letters of Peach

Actually, I was not supposed to reply to your 873-word blog in the fear that the reply would not reciprocate what you really felt towards my stories. Though, I had read your blog which listed your favorite stories where your top 5 were all written by me. I could not help but write something for you.

Thank you. I knew you were one of the first readers of my WordPress ever since I created this account. I think you were the first? Or the second? I have no idea how you make time to read my blogs and stories, but I appreciate it. People like you inspire me to inspire more. Thank you.

Sorry if this was all I got. Again, thank you.

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100% Fangirl


Summer, 2012.

The time that I had my first Android phone – a birthday gift from my brother. That was also the time when I got myself hooked in reading stories. My sister’s friend sent us a copy of a story entitled, 548 Heartbeats by Peachxvision. Yay! I love it! Just the moment that I had finished reading it, I already considered it as my favorite ever! Not knowing that her other stories were as lovable as 548 HB was.

Days after, my sister’s friend sent us again another story, and this one called – Tossed Coin. Turning my world upside down with all the twists in this story. Who would ever thought that Jet would be the one for Chi? It was obviously a romantic war between the first love and true love. And somehow, many couldn’t just help but got related with the plot of this story. I guess, after reading Tossed Coin, I just have found myself surfing the internet, looking for her Facebook page, Twitter, Multiply and Teentalk accounts. I have known that she had also A Miracle and 22nd of April. During that time, This is Not A Love Story is still on-going and also Siya. I remember myself reading TNLS over and over again from the very beginning whenever there’s an update. I’ve literally memorized every Jappa’s line on it which makes him adorable and somehow makes me wish to have someone, to have someone like Jappa in my life. Someone who would honestly tell you what you need to hear and not just what you wanted to hear. Geez. Haha. If you have read my post here in WordPress entitled Hopeless Romantic, you’ll get what I mean.

I was really happy reading her stories. Sending nostalgic feeling over me. My high school life and the people that I have met back then. I also start liking Santan because of her. I remember how Xei and Chi loves Santan. How the Battle of the Bands went on. How Xai loves becoming a teacher someday. How Jappa points out CJ that she could get over with Wayne. How Nathan loves Mary. How badly Mary wants to cry. How emotional the song Tears in Heaven was. How pathetic CJ was whenever Wayne Agapito didn’t reply her text messages. How Kurt taken April for granted until he realized how much he loves her. How stuck Aiden was by the memories of Lenlen. How confused Chi was and assuming at the same time. Lol. And most of all, how every character of her stories learned how to love unconditionally. How to love someone without asking something in return.

I have read everything on her blog. And I guess, one of my favorites are Emotional Masochist, The House, Confession of A Public Teacher, Fiction Story, Inbox Message, Laplace Transforms, The Child Inside, Would You and most especially, Happy 2nd Anniversary. I swear. That was the sweetest. I can’t help but smile while reading latter. I mean, she did really remember everything! I love it.

I remember whenever a friend ask me what story is worth reading, I would immediately tell her to read 548 HB, TNLS, Tossed Coin, A Miracle, 22nd of April, Siya, Gaku and everything that Ate Jess will be doing. I’m not really a fan, am I? Haha

I have learned a lot of things because of her, because of her stories. And somehow, knowing her is like knowing myself. I felt like she was a friend. Her sentiments are my sentiments. Her pain is my pain. Her song is my song. Her love is my love. She really know the words. Because of her, I have been inspired writing in a blog (and having an account here in wordpress actually). I have been inspired also writing a story (that’s still on-going, I tell you. Haha) I have known the difference between in every ist – masochist, sadist, conformist, sexist and everything. I have been inspired to become a vocalist lead guitarist of one all-girl group band. Obviously, she’s an inspiration! If you were my friend, I can tell you that you might know her because of me, because apparently, I love telling stories about her to my friends.

That’s why, it saddened me a lot when she deleted all her accounts last January, and beyond happy when she revive them again last August. And last September 14, it tore me apart when I wasn’t able to meet her that day. One, because, I have a class. Second, even if I have no class that day, I still can’t because I’d rather go to church (Saturday is our worship day, I don’t have a choice but to attend school every Saturday that’s why I only get the chance to go church whenever there is). I am just really hoping that, that day wouldn’t be the last day. I want to meet her badly. Have pictures with her and talk to her. Such a fangirl huh?

I guess, I will be forever a fan. Until the day, she and Kuya JP get married. Until, I have found my own Jappa.

By the way, if I would get the chance to say this Ate Jess, I would tell you this..

You’re beautiful, just the way you are.

Christian Life

Goodbye, Old Self

One day I met Jesus and He helps me understand
Life on earth without Him makes me lonely makes me scared
He changed my life completely
Changed my dark nights into days
He pour His grace upon me and He told me to follow Him
To follow Him and obey

Goodbye, goodbye
It’s hard to say goodbye
My old dreams and desire I left behind
Jesus gives another way to take
Another way to live
Goodbye old self

He told me to follow Him and to give up everything
Give up all my hopes and dreams
And put my trust on Him
It’s hard for me to nod my head
And say yes to my Savior’s call
But then I remember on the cross of Calvary
He was nailed to die for me

Goodbye, goodbye
It’s hard to say goodbye
My old dreams and desire I left behind
Jesus give another way to take
Another way to live
Goodbye old self


Dead Stars

Fixed marriage.

A boy and a girl were tied by the knot of fixed marriage. Though, they don’t love each other, they can’t just get out from that miserable arrangement. They don’t have a choice. So the least thing that they could do is to be with each other.

Unconsciously, the girl just found herself falling for the guy. She just can’t fight it. But things just become more complicated because the guy loves another girl. The girl thinks that whether the guy would know about her feelings or not, it won’t change the fact that the guy loves someone and he can’t love her back. The guy and the other girl used to see each other often. But since they were both compromised by the arrange marriage, the guy just can’t leave the girl alone. He made a choice that would definitely left his heart broken. He left the other girl. He stayed by his wife’s side.

Years later.

Who would have thought that the guy will be in love with his wife? Yes. They now love each other. They seem happy with each other’s loving arms.

One day, the guy met the other girl. After long years, they meet again. With no words spoken, the guy felt confused. At that moment, he got confused by his feelings. His heart skip a beat when his eyes lay upon the other girl and flashes of memories with her just came back rapidly. And somehow, he missed the feeling.

And then, he thought he still love her.

He didn’t know what to do. He loves his wife very much but she can’t just handle the feelings that the other girl brought to his veins. He can’t stop thinking about her. About the what if’s. About the things that they would probably doing if their still together. It feels like a lifetime torture. He never wanted to hurt his wife’s feelings.

Then, realizations hit him. He might still love the other girl. Or maybe the memories that they’ve shared but not the person herself.

But he loves her wife very much. He was in love with his wife.

“I love you” is different from “I’m in love with you” – am I right?


Have you heard about the dead stars?

According to Mr. Webster, stars are fixed luminous point in the night sky that is a large, remote incandescent body like the sun. They were basically travel through thousands of light years. And as they travel through these thousands of light years, stars gone dead. Before they could reach their destination, they were dying.

Many of us were fascinated by the beauty of stars, but, in reality, the beauty itself is not there anymore. The light that they possess remains when they died. That’s the very reason why we think they were still there, shining so bright and feels so alive – even if they weren’t any longer.

Just like in this story – in love.

Sometimes when we saw the person that we previously loved, we got confused. Our heart raced. Memories keep on flashing. Questions running into our minds. And the worst is we’re ending up making wrong decisions. Letting go the person that we love in the present and everything. But it was purely absurd. We must not let our hearts overrule us, because our hearts get easily deceived. In times like this, we were blinded by the memories that we’ve shared with them. The promises that we have made. That promise of loving each other till the very end. We were blinded by the idea of love. We sometimes thinks it was love when in fact, we were just in love by the idea of being love.

Just like the stars, we generally think that they were still there, so near, yet they were not. They were all just dead stars.

Thanks to Dale’s friends, Jez and Ivan for sharing these thoughts. Making me realized something. Ooooops, I know, someone can also relate herself with this. Hello, Regine! Hahaha 😀